close to you

why do stars fall down from the sky
every time you walk by?
just like me, they long to be
close to you.

adrian. the loveliest boy i know. one of few people who
understand me. he is an angel among men. and when
we're together, i'm an angel too.

on the day that you were born
the angels got together
and decided to create a dream come true.

my legs are wrapped around his waist. bare and gently
bronzed from the week before. a beach photoshoot. my
bikini was missing but a long scarf played along my curves
in its place. today we were supposed to be planning for
another shoot and i felt lonely. my body ached to be held.
and my lips craved to be kissed and my eyes longed to stare
deeply into another's. but i was content. here. my legs wrapped
around adrian's waist and my head resting on his shoulder
while i pouted and he tried to drink coffee around my petite frame.

so they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold

and starlight in your eyes of blue.

we'd been stuck like this for an hour now and if we didn't think
of something quickly my body would cloud over my mind. i'm
a very social creature, i need social interaction. i need to be
told how beautiful i am and i need to be loved and to give love
or else i turn into this angry little wench and i throw tantrums
and people get annoyed and then i get sad and i cry and i
feel ugly and stupid. and the cycle begins again.

vibration.
hips wiggling.
hands grope for
the thing responsible
for this feeling.

a phone. adrians. a message.

a girllll! a little vixen with cute text. shy words and a soft voice.
she's nothing like me or rafa sitting across from us. i can
already tell.

my eyes widen as a small smile plays along my lips.
a girl for adrian? he hasn't told me anything but then
again he's right to keep her a secret. i like to pry and
that's exactly what i'm doing in this moment. my fingers
lace behind the back of his neck and i can feel rafaela
glaring at me from the other side of the table. i don't care.
adrian calls me his princess, his petit bébé, his soleil,
and rafaela may be able to walk all over him but i still
have the upper hand.

"Adri-ann! Are you trying to cheat on me and Rafa? Mm?
Don't like making love to me anymore? Am I boring you?"

lightly tinted lips pout pink towards his beautiful face.
its obvious that i'm feigning sadness but a small
pang of insecurity dances in my tummy. i don't want
anyone to take adrian away from me because i'm
selfish and yet i want him to find someone to set
his heart ablaze. i want him to make love like he
used to. and despite being slightly jealous of this
anonymous woman, i read the message outloud.

"Ooo! A party, I love parties! We will go, yes?
I want to meet this girl you hide from me. She
better not be prettier than me or else I will have
to have her first. Come, We get dressed and then
we go. "

and before i move completely from his lap i study
his face. if this is a girl he likes then i will step away
but that doesn't mean that i can't have fun first. maybe
one or two more times. you don't get rid of good lovers
so easily. and adrian is one of my favorites.

"We can all shower at my place. The bath is big enough."

i wink. a shower will only be the start of a good night.
i know that if adrian is going then blake will be there
too and with the potential loss of my favorite boy i
might gain another. and as the summer sun shines
on, i have high hopes.

that is why all the girls in town
follow you all around.
just like me, they long to be
close to you.