i awoke to the feeling of your lips on my skin.
goosebumps stripped me from a dream i cannot remember.
my eyes met yours as you pulled away but your hands wandered lower.
on a regular day i would feel absolutely fervent.
excited by what was to follow.
but today i just feel stupid.
i feel stupid and used.
my mind keeps playing back the events of the other day.
a swerving car, razor blades, a highway fence, a loaded gun, my begging screams.
my chest feels empty and hollow.
my heart aches and echoes in every bone of my body.
i am lost and confused.