people never believe someone when they
say they're struggling with negative emotions.
"everyone gets sad" they'll say.
"life's hard" they retort.
"take a number and get in line."
no one ever believes how hard
someone is trying not to drown.
they always think it's a joke.

until you take your last breath.
until you've finally taken that jump off the edge.
until your soul has left your body.

the most important things are the hardest things to say...

expectations leading me down a hallway i know so well

yet fight so hard to pretend i can't see it.

the walls of disappointment are slowly closing in on me lately.

how? how do i travel so many roads, search the darkest

depths of my soul and still find myself here?