paper

don't be a f r a i d of dollar signs.
of pointless, o n e w a y, purchase lines.
they aren't h a z a r d o u s to your health.
just your w a l l e t 's.

detained.

I had been working on telling you the truth for years.
Keeping it all tucked safely away at the back of the vault that is my mind.
It lies in wait.
Watching for just the right moment to pounce on all the false promises you say.
They fall on me like bricks, hitting away all of my defenses.
And just when I believe that these words I've stored will surface,
you tell me all these lies to keep me right where you want me.
You wrap me around your thick fingers like a rubber band.
Yet I cut off no circulation.
And you're still relentless in your tall tales.
I soak them up because I need to believe them in order to keep moving on.
I need to stay quiet and accept them.
Like you are some wise old king.
And I am just some silly little princess with silly little idea's.
You pump me full of hope with your bedroom eyes.
Kiss away every doubt until I'm left begging for you to stay when it should be the other way around.
The world has so much to offer me yet I waste time in allowing you to keep me here.
I am Rapunzel, trapped in your castle of lies.
And you? You're my knight in shining armor.
But you have no plan to save me.

boy

he holds the key to every emotion i've been trying desperately to hide.
where no one else knows where to search,
his eyes automatically hit the right spot.
its like hes been waiting for me to show up for half a millenium with sleepy eyes.
hes got these hands that know just where to touch in order to calm an anxiety attack.
and i'm just wet clay for molding.

remember

i remember the first time i met you. you were bronze and gold all over from too much sun. i thought i was gonna die from how fast my heart was beating. but your hands held me in place. you never did let the world lose me. you always kept me close just in case.

lock

help me lock away every fucking doubt that i've ever had about myself. and you? you just don't understand that you've got the key to everything i have ever been afraid of. you have the power to destroy with one blink of your eyes.

night

Feel the night press against your back and forget about yesterday and the day before that. Remember the electricity racing at your fingertips. Hands running over skin and the feeling of warmth from being near someone. Remember the affect she had on your heart as it swelled with every kiss she stole. And never forget how fast your heart raced when she was near. Never forget that feeling of lost breath whenever she suddenly disappears and you realize it was only a dream. Nay, a nightmare. She still haunts you even after you've come undone.

ache

i have these intense yearnings for flesh.
for fingertips dipping and diving along my spine.
i need the taste of lips burning along feverish skin.
weak knees shaking like fresh fish out of water.